argh!!!
feeling so sucky now!
am i thinking too much?
i always feel that they wants to separate me & my baby!
always my baby wan find me or wants me to carry,
they'll say cannot cos i'm pregnant or will attract her w other things.
& if i jus carry & walk away, they'll find me disrespectful!
HOW HOW HOW?!
always cos of all this, i'll cry myself to slp!
& at times i even think of sucide!
rubbish right!
though i know is not a solution but i'm running away from prob. sigh
will i get depression soon?
& i always sudden mood swing. at times i really wish there's only the 3 of us & noone else.
i will feel moody if hubby not ard during the night time.
mayb due to untidyness & the hot weather! sigh
argh!
jus hope our rental flat will come before i deliver to my 2nd baby!
i rather do everthing myself than depends on others,
i dont mind working extra job, dont mind giving my slp away cos of baby!
sigh